i am so fukkin tired

im tired of the bullshit the life keeps hittin me with.... im tired of the bull shit ppl try to pull.... im tired of the bullshit i get myself into.... im just all around tired of the bullshit

itz time for some change.... lets make a new day, where we all can say that we did what we wanted, where there was nothing in our way from gettin what we deserve, where no one can tell us what we did wrong and there's no way to fix it, where our dreams are but a step, in the riight direction, away from becoming a reality, where we can look in the mirror and say, even tho i failed i gave my full effort and there was never anything i ever could have done differently and still walk away feeling reassured and motivated to try something new....

lets make or own way... Forget what they tell us, unlearn what we have been force fed and make our own choices, forget the lies and seek the truth, do away with insufficiency and challenge uncertainty....

we can make life what we want it to be... all we have to do is believe we can, and we will succeed, indeed....@;-

....aint DAT da truth...?

so here i am, and im STILL not the "legit" man i wanted to be, in fact, im a lil MORE illegal and a LOT more in trouble.... maybe you've heard, but if you havent, i aint tellin you cuz you prolly dont care anywayz... but ANYWHOZZZ'n'VLAGGEN.....^_^

im just about fed up wit bullshit.... i need my own shyt.... i have to get a move on with my life so i can finally pull myself up from out this dump... i been in this slump since b4 i can remember and im still workin on gettin my footing, or something liike that....

i dont know what to do with myself anymore.... maybe i have to work on myself some more, EMOTIONALLY, cuz my mind is in disarray and i have no bearings on my future anymore, everything seems possible, and unattainable at the same tiime.... in the words of p-diddy and usher, i need a girl....